i’m tired.

i’m in a fantasy football league this year. it’s kinda crazy how it has consumed my life. my girlfriend knows not to plan anything on sundays and monday nights. i’ve always watched football, but now i’m taking notes, pausing the recorded game and looking up players and their stats, noting their age, listing prior injuries seeing if they have a twitter account. this obsession begins on tuesday morning. 6 am. that is when adding and dropping for free agents opens. all the information from the nine hours on sunday and the monday night game plus the espn, sports talk shows, blogs and sometimes notespn that i gathered the previous week is put into the first 5 minutes, 6:00- 6:05. It is disgusting that i know the whole nfl schedule for the next two weeks. who is playing in a dome. who averages more yards per carry on turf than grass. what the weather forecast is in new england on sunday. if Denver had a bye last week and how their practice seeions went through practice reports. hi my name is martin sabastian gomez and i’m in a fantasy football league.

two major events changed the national football league. high definition formatted television and fantasy football. i fucken changed my satellite provider so i could record four nfl games at once instead of a pathetic two games. i’m noticing tends in football teams like an sports analyst. rivers always has a slow first quarter unless he’s at home. i get annoyed if i have to watch a game in sd, standard definition. shitty definition.

growing up in The Valley, i never really had a football team growing up. the rams were here for awhile but were the equivalent to the clippers. and the raiders. raider nation. it is gang attire. like how the gays have taken the rainbow as their symbol, gangs have taken the raiders as their logo. what if you thought the full color spectrum was cool and your dad was gene Upshaw and you got a tattoo of both on your back? fucken screwed. i followed players i liked or were from the valley like john elway and Fredrick taylor. but now with fantasy fucken football i’m following everyone. and their backup.

i’m not sure why i’m typing this. i’m super tired. i am tied in my league for the best record. i really wish i didn’t trade Sydney rice for coles. i really wish i never heard of fantasy football. unless i win the 1100 us dollars at the end of the season.